i hate u!!!!!!!!!!!

chill...... i try my best to stand everything from u.. but u, never think for other, keep move forward and force until no way for me to go.. i wish i have a wide heart as the sea.. so i can be patience on everything u had done i wish i dare to open my mouth and telling all the unstatisfied from me.. but i think i will never do that. as i know, u r a super narrow minded person, but who always like to act how best u are, how good u r. hey, im here just for work, look for money which from my own works.. not any property from u!i respect u so i just admit what u do. i also has my own limit. i really wish to quit my job right now!!! now!!! but i feel im guilty to do so, i feel that im a irresponsible person. but how about u? do u ever think of other feeling? u just care about your own. i feel shame on u who r a dharma learner. like to judge other people a lot but never look back your own. like this kind of person still dare to talk dharma to me? i wish to talk karma to her. everyday i tell myself to be patience.. i convinve myself that i almost to leave.
everything is other people did it wrongly, other people's fault. you never wrong. everything u did is the most perfect and correct. wat the hell.... i never think to say vulgar on u, but u! make i really cant stand anymore. dont want to argue with u, because u will never admit, and will find out many many excuses.

the road less travelled by...

i had do some decision which was weird... seem like a princess in a castle but she has to work for her life. not in the achieve success condition but to pass her life to be responsible on her own , sister and mother spending.. Started her work fro half year but never make any deal in her saving. she felt that she had done nothing so this half year, even she is very tired, but she cant give up... she no yet accomplish her responsibility. she wants to abide her own rules.. not to give up in anytime or in any torturing condition. she choose to be patience on all this. she may not blame on fate or god, because she choose all this. however, in this moment, she don't feel she can afford any responsibility more. she wonder why so less body is caring about her, and she think about it. finally she found out it was cause by the reflection from her less caring to others. a person has only one pair of hand, a heart and a brain, this is same to other... so at the end of the day she learn how to live by her own. she lost her friends but she gain mature. she believe that the maturity that she own is vital fro her to success.she plan and think well the road she will go through and in the future the things she wants. she is clear on her aim. no matter how the people think of her, look down or even think she is the worst but her wisdom in her mind will not easily spoilt by all this rumours.she loves to cry like a kid.. this is the way for her to express out all her sadness and her speechless. she will forgive them,

2010 first post

finally got my result. 3.33, even it was not tat gud, but im statisfy on it.. cheers.. cant wait to get in university, and start my new challeging life. sometimes i feel that me myself is stupid, sometimes i feel im good dy if compare to other. but i starting to feel something of him, who will care u more as starting, who will bother u more when we r in quarell... no more as starting, everything fade, as time goes... even im worry, even im scare of losing... but i still will face it, as the day he went off from me. i still can stand back again..... cheers.. im sure i can.

我还记得你

亲爱的部落格：

很对不起冷落你太久了。被人冷落的滋味不好受吧。。 真的很怕去习惯些什么。因为有时候当你习惯了某些事情后，突然间， 事情不再想你习惯的那样走，会觉得很痛苦及非常的不习惯。有时候我觉得生活过得很累， 却没的选择停止。之前一想到要进大学，就感到非常的高兴和很兴奋的努力读书。往往有时候一定会有一些人把一切都摧毁。请赐给我从新的生命力，加油的过生活啊！多半个钟又要离开，谁会晓得我每一次也会有不舍。

unforgetable

a day which no one can shimmer down their rescent. im the one who surround with all the trouble. sometimes i may feel statisfy toward everything, but somehow there are still some unfortunate matter within my life. i believe that no one could understand me well, all that i had experienced was not the small matter that can be describe through the words. while i breath i do really hope. even though sometimes there were not wat i hope had happened, what should i do? sometimes i do really feel nothing can be done. everytime the sun rise, i will tell myself that everything will be ok, strive for my future! to much things that i need to cover, it is out of boundary. i want to say stop to every bad things. dun that god feels im pity enough to suffer for all this? i hv no way to stop it, i know that. but i really belief that god is there to love me , because sometimes miracle did happened to save me.. i will strengthen my life, i know there must be a changed which need me to launch it. no matter how many times, how many drop of tears, it jz to expressing part of my life. after tat i will be ok. the way to be a good human being not that easy. u can choose any time or day to embark on a new life. your mind is the measurement to determine how is your life and how enjoyable you can be in your life. please let your faithful heart to control your life but not others. i know that it is hard for most people not to be affected by their surrounding. those obstacle sometimes really make people feel tired of life. but it still need to go on. survive will be preferable than death.No matter how tired i feel i still need to continue my journey, no matter wat had happen, i still need to continue my hope. jz because them hwo are crucial , who are the catalyst in my life to boost up the rate of my spirit to be more successfull. im their hope and i also really hope their hope may become the reality. the responsibility is on my shoulder. all the character that i hv to act is not a easy job. this does not mean im acting but it as the mean that the position that i need to do in the process of my life. ^^ happy go lucky ! go go go! never give up ^^ no matter how many misunderstanding i still will stay strong.... not only for myself , but for them too ^^ put more effort! ~~

生 命 的 存 在

我 存 在 在 这 个 世 界.... 刚 刚 本 来 有 很 多 东 西 想 写.. 但 是 想 了 一 想, 又 觉 得 这 个 不 能 写 那 个 不 能 写.... 因 为 我 不 想 有 任 何 的 误 会, 说 得 容 易, 解 释 可 难... 我 累 了... 大 家 都 很 好, 就 是 我 不 够 好.

超 级 倒 霉

昨 天 车 祸 了, 虽 然 不 是 我 的 错 但 还 是 要 被 骂. 我 也 知 道 爸 爸 是 爱 我 的, 在 电 话 骂 了 听 到 我 哭 回 家 就 没 骂 了. 怕 到 要 死. 手 脚 都 软 了, 只 懂 得 哭. 很 没 用. 第 一 时 间 就 想 要 打 电 话 跟 老 公 说 了. 希 望 还 能 勇 敢 的 驾 车. 但 是 哈 哈. 最 近 很 努 力 教 补 习, 是 因 为 想 找 一 点 钱 用. 没 钱 的 日 子 很 难 真 的 需 要 时 间 . 哈 哈. 最 近 不 停 下 雨, 很 难 要 进 行 我 的 健 康 瘦 身 计 划. 哈 哈. 加 油 吧! 别 忘 了 要 努 力 读 书.. 为 了 是 我 的 未 来. 自 从 有 了 傻 瓜, 生 活 真 的 快 乐 许 多. 身 边 有 一 个 人 陪 着 果 然 会 有 些 不 同 的.